my life

of Call of Duty Black Ops and me

2011-02-06T18:06:00.002Z

I've gotten so addicted with Call of Duty that I think I don't mind it having those glitches at all. And the fact that I kept on playing although its just something repetitive to be playing the same multiplayer match over and over again just to get myself leveled up to the 50th level 15th prestige.

If you're not a COD player, once you prestiged, you'll start over at level 1 on that prestige level, meaning as if you're starting as a beginner except for the fact that you get a new prestige sign which signifies to others you are a PRO especially if you really are playing like a pro like what I do so often like getting a kill/death ratio of more than 2 or 3. I've even gotten a k/d of 28 once where I've gotten myself 28 kills and only 1 death, how good am I, you tell me.

But seriously, once you're addicted to it, that's it, your life is ruined. Why? Think about it yourself.

Transitional Phase

2011-01-29T22:39:00.003Z

You know what transitions are, and no, I'm not talking about those transitional metals on the periodic table. What I meant was the stage in which I'm transitioning from my Theoretical Part of my course to my Clinical Part, and yeah, I really am looking forward to clinicals.

Why? Cause it ain't like in my earlier years, where I have to study study study to understand and memorize things. Its much more exciting from now onwards that I get to do things hands-on, (not fully though, I ain't a doctor yet) like taking patients history, look at the medical equipments, do physical exams, etc.

Well, I haven't exactly start going to hospitals just yet, as in, not going the the whole day for a week, but yeah, I'm in the transition phase like I mentioned earlier. I do have to go to hospitals, but only for a few hours, and its like we have to meet patients in a large group of, erm, lets see, like 25 person a group. And after about 6 weeks from now, I'll start going to hospitals only. 3 weeks each in 3 different hospitals, should be exciting.

Though the upcoming part is quite exciting as it sounds (from where did I hear about them?), there'll only be a few Malaysians left from March onwards. For the time being, there're about 80 of us Malaysians here in a class of about 250 students, and it then be reduced to about 15 if I'm not mistaken by 5th March 2011. Why? Cause the rest of them will be returning to Malaysia and continue their clinicals in Malaysia.

Anyway, I just hope everything will be just fine after this, or if it won't be fine, I hope it gets better than just fine.

Oh right, before I forget, I had my White Coat Ceremony last Thursday. That's the ceremony that marks our transition from Theoretical to Clinical, plus, we get a free white coat, yay.

Toodles~

Me getting coated

Dyla and me with our white coats

Where is your boy ......

2011-01-27T10:43:00.003Z

..... the whole of 2010 (quoting the 1st part of a sentence in Fall Out Boys' song in the title)

I've been so silent lately, heck, not lately, its more like forever, and I've got this busy schedule to keep up with, bla bla bla (enough with all these excuses). Anyway, just would like to share with all of you that I am finally halfway towards becoming a doctor. So peeps, you guys really really really should affirm with any or all medical advices I'll be giving ya, cause why? Cause I'm almost a doctor, hahahaha.

Later...

dusty old blog

2009-12-06T21:02:00.007Z

You know, I realized its been way over 6 months since I last step foot on the "Blogosphere", and then when I returned, my first post was some dissatisfaction expression. Haha, by the way, I shall have my exams starting Tuesday 8th December 2009, and ends by Wednesday 16th December 2009.

I'm eager to finish the exams, cause I really can't wait to play lots of games that I acquire the past 2 months (I have 40+ games now yet only finished 4 of them, sigh). Also, if anyone would like to buy a PS3 game from me, do tell me.

Next up, my hockey stats so far, I've assissted 3 times, won 2 short corners which saw my team score goals from, and scored 1 goal. Yay!! Compared to last year, same month, I only have assisted once.

I know, I may not be a Transformers freak, but hey, I really wanted the 2010 Camaro like in these pictures:Damn its nice.

Phew, wish it could transform.

And the best part of the Chevrolet Camaro 2010 Transformers Edition are as follows:

The Autobot insignia in front of the front door

Again, an Autobot insignia on the wheels.

And look inside, the armrest even have an ambroidery of the Autobots insignia, yeay.

Everything about the model can be viewed here.

Although I already have 4 Bumblebees in my possession, I think this one I shouldn't miss, but wait, this edition is only available in the States. Awww, damn, should've get someone to buy them for me, and send it back to Malaysia. Don't care if its road tax costs me thousands (just look at the engines, 6.2 litres, what the hell?).

So friends, want a be my best buddy forever? Get me this car, hahahaha.

Layak ke?

2009-12-06T16:21:00.002Z

Aku kenal la seorang ni, dia ni dengan asyiknya membangkang segala apa yang kerajaan kita sekarang laksanakan. Aku tak kisahlah kalau kau nak bangkang, tapi fikirlah balik, kau layak ke? Dengan diri kau tu yang tak pernah-pernah nak memudahkan hidup orang lain yang dekat dengan kau (housemate, roommate), nak kritik pula orang-orang yang kene fikir nak mudahkan hidup beribu-ribu orang. Memanglah hak kita sebagai pengundi (oops, baru aku ingat, umur kau tak cukup lagi, so ada hak ke?) untuk mempersoalkan apa tindakan yang bakal kerajaan laksanakan, tapi, sedarlah, kau sendiri tak pernah nak cuba mudahkan hidup orang lain, tapi asyik nak orang buat untuk kau. Apa ke halnya ni? Tolonglah perbaikkan diri kau dulu sebelum kau nak kritik orang-orang yang perlu buat keputusan untuk beribu-ribu orang lagi. They have to please thousands, you? Only a few, yet you fail to do so.

Aku dari dulu, dari aku masih di tingkatan satu di Kolej Melayu Kuala Kangsar, kolej yang ramai juga orang benci tu, dah dididik dengan semangat, atau lebih tepat, pemikiran, "Jangan fikir apa yang koleq (merujuk kepada institusi pengajian kami, MCKK) boleh bagi kat korang, tapi fikirlah apa yang kau boleh sumbang untuk koleq". Aku pegang falsafah (bagi aku falsafah dah kot) tu sampai sekarang, sbb, memanglah aku dah keluar/tamat pengajian dari MCKK tu, tapi, aku boleh aplikasikan falsafah tu di mana-mana. Sekarang aku fikir, jangan harapkan orang lain untuk sumbang, tolong, bantu, bagi macam-macam pada aku, tapi aku harapkan aku dapat jadi seorang yang berguna untuk sumbang, bantu, tolong macam-macam buat orang sekeliling aku. Pegang falsafah ni, dan InsyaAllah aku akan berjaya. Amin

What craze after exams?

2009-05-25T01:56:00.002+01:00

Aku dah gila. Kamu semua tahu tak? Kami di sini, Isyak masuk around jam 11.11mlm, lepas itu, Subuh pula menyusul seawal jam 3 pagi. Jadi, masa tidur aku pun telah diubah ke selepas solat Subuh, atau kadang-kadang, eh, silap, bukan kadang-kadang, "selalu" adalah perkataan yang lebih sesuai, jadi, selalu, aku tidur pun selepas jam 5-6 pagi (rasa-rasanya lah). Bangun pula jam 10pg-12tgh hari. Memang gila hidup aku sekarang. Tak apalah, merasa hidup siang yang lama di negeri orang ini. Tak mengapalah, nak balik Malaysia dah lagi 5 hari. So, dengan ini, saya, Awang Mohd Ridhwan Mohd Noordin, pelajar tahun pertama perubatan di University College Dublin, mengisytiharkan, saya sendiri, dalam kegilaan ingin pulang ke Malaysia, senang kata, "Back to Malaysia for summer holiday" craze!!!!!

Exam Craze

2009-05-06T08:46:00.003+01:00

In the coming few days or week, or perhaps earlier than today, students across the world will be facing (or have faced) their exam for this semester, or most of you, final exam of your term.

As of today, my exams will start off with PHPS2001: Personal and Population Health.

The rest are as follows:
Friday: MDSA10110 Renal Biology
Saturday: MDSA10090 Cardiac Biology
Monday (Next week): MDSA10080 Vascular Biology
Wednesday: MDSA10100 Respiratory Biology

So, I hope to achieve better this time around, unlike last semester.
Thank you all for your support.

This is My Game

2009-05-02T01:52:00.012+01:00

University College Dublin 3 2008/2009 achievement:

Winners Walters Cup
Runners Up Division 8 Leinster League
Runners Up Junior Cup

Though we failed to win all three (only won 1), this year was a very glorious year for UCD3, with the recruitment of 7 youth players (including me), managed to get into 2 cup finals (I'm not even sure how many cups they have in Leinster Hockey though), and tailing by only 2 pts to the league winners. All in all, Ridhwan Noordin scored 2 goals and made 2 (or maybe 3, can't remember) goal assists for the team in 9 (of 14) league appearances and 4 (of 7) cup appearances.

So, enough of the summary. I don't care what people say, my friends in the US said, field hockey is a game for girls, guys play ice hockey, go hell with them. Then girls in your country must be braver than your guys, cause ice hockey is played with full paddings all over your body whilst field hockey with pads also, but only on the shins. Lame to think hockey is a game for girls ONLY.

I don't care, people keep saying its such a waste for picking to buy a hockey stick worth GBP150 (RRP: GBP300) instead of going to watch the most supported football club in the world (I think), Man Utd playing against Arsenal in the so called Theatre of Dreams. I'm not saying I don't love Man Utd, I do, but hockey is a part of me. Why would I go watch Man Utd lift the trophy, when I can lift my own trophy (my team's trophy), and even get my own medals?

Owh, did I mentioned earlier? I got myself a new stick, the Grays Otech Silver Megabow. I'd like to sell my Dita, any takers?

Dita won me the silver and Grays won me the gold

Sedarlah wahai Ridhwan

2009-04-20T02:20:00.002+01:00

You know, recently, my posts are only related to my career in hockey. Now, I realize, I have to really strive for my exams as well. Tomorrow will start the week of the final lecture week, and then, we're off to study week, followed by exams on 6th May. 17 days left, to study, ooops, I've forgotten something here, language exam on Wednesday 22nd April (oral) and Friday 24th April (written). Should really get on working, perhaps 110% instead of just 100%.

Those of you out there done with exams, having exams now, or will have exams later, I wish you all the best of luck in whatever it is.

Treble in Leinster Hockey (UCD 3)

2009-04-16T21:11:00.002+01:00

Its been long since I've given any updates on my well being and such. As of today, my hockey team, the UCD 3 is standing on top of Division 8, with one point ahead of Kilkenny, finalist for the Junior Challenge Cup where the final will be on this Sunday 19th April and finalist for the Walters Cup, on which will be played next Sunday 26th April.

Our last game for the league of the year would be on 25th April, a day before Junior Challenge Cup final, in which we really hope none would encounter any injury, (except for Steve, whom we anticipate might get hit again, due to his "bad-luck", sorry Steve, hope you'll have a better luck this time). On 25th, we'll play against St. Brendan's, the team in 3rd place currently whilst the title challenger, Kilkenny, will play against Wicklow, the team in last spot on the table. If we win, we'll win the division and might get promoted, but if we lost, just hope for Kilkenny to only manage a draw against Wicklow so we still win by goal margin. The league table can be seen here.

So, this Sunday, the Junior Challenge Cup, we'll play against Kilkenny, whom we call our archrivals, since we only managed a draw with them once, and lost the other game in the league. However, based on our track record, we're better than Kilkenny in this cup as in all our matches, we won by a margin of at least 5 goals. If we win, we've bagged a medal before playing the following 2 games next week. Go UCD 3.

As for the other cup, we'll be playing against Glennane, a team I think is 3 divisions ahead of us. No fear, as we have beaten in the semi final, YMCA which is 2 divisions ahead of us. The cup draws can be seen here. And by winning this cup (assuming we won the earlier 2 games), we managed a treble this year.

We really hope, that we'll win all three titles. Please dear readers, pray for our wins, and I thank you all for that. Peace be upon you. Salam

That which matters the least should never give way to that which matters the most.

2009-03-10T15:26:00.003Z

I really think just by the title itself, you guys would have understood what I'd like to post here. You see, I've been holding on to this proverb for quite some time since I found it printed on the side of Dyla's (my girlfriend) bottle.

So, you see, why I'd like to tell you about this proverb is so that you would know what to do when you must choose between 2 things with different priorities in your life. However, if you choose the one with higher priority, does it mean you'll succeed in whatever you do if you ignore the one matters least.

To give you an example here, last week, my coursemates and I, had an MCQ examination on Wednesday. And because of the MCQ examination, which is Cardiac Biology and Vascular Biology, combined you get Cardiovascular (nah, they didn't combine the papers anyway), most of my lecture mates did not came to lectures not related to the subjects mentioned, or perhaps, not relevant to the MCQ exam that will be held on Wednesday. On Monday, we had a Vascular Biology lecture, they all came, at the end of the lecture, one person asked, will today's lecture be included in the MCQ on Wednesday? And Prof Steve Pennington answered, No, it won't be asked in the MCQ exam.

Then, the next day, not even half of the class came for PHPS20010 (Personal and Population Health) lecture, and that made the lecturer raged with madness, "You think this module is not important?". And then, the next day, the exam day itself (MCQ Exam starts at 1900hrs), we have Renal at 13oohrs, Cardiac lecture at 1500hrs was cancelled and at 1600hrs, we have Vascular biology. Guess what, not even half turned up for Renal Biology and whats worse, not even a quarter turned up for Vascular Biology. Steve Pennington, at the end of the lecture told us, "I really appreciate that a few of you managed to come to this lecture despite having an MCQ exam this evening. What we'll do is, pass around a piece of paper, write down your names and I might be able to give you a 10% extra marks for your MCQ".

See, what did the others miss? 10% extra marks, thats quite a lot considering its an MCQ paper where we have negative markings for mistakes. The point is, not about the extra marks they missed, but seriously, the effort and will to turn up for lecture. Nah, who cares if I'm mumbling about it, its their own choice to go for the lectures, or not to go.

And by the way, to relate with the political scenario in our country (Malaysia), I think those politicians in Perak did no wrong. We might think matters about what they do is not important and the country's economical state should be given priority above all, but hey, that which matters the least should never give way to that which matters the most. Bear this is in mind.

My Hypothesis

2009-03-02T22:32:00.002Z

"Intelligence is a type of polygenic inheritance."

So, I've been reading about intelligence, and the above statement is what I'm trying to hypothesize (well, I did the hypothesis with a friend of mine when we were in KMB, Hafiz was his name). Indeed, there were, or perhaps, there are scientists suggesting Intelligence is inherited and only minority of it is due to environment. This is a statement by Steve Brady which could be read from an article here.

"On the basis of these results, he concluded that 80% of observed differences in human intelligence were due to inherited genetic factors, and only 20% to the environment, and his published figures appeared to support this firmly".

But, I haven't found any stating that Intelligence is a polygenic inheritance (just read here for brief info of it but you might want to try reading from biology textbook for clarifications). However, if you guys could find any, just give me a shout, cause I didn't really took much time searching for it. And so, I had a thought again, of what me and Hafiz simply thought about about 2 years ago, cause we learnt about polygenic inheritance in biology class that time.

At first, I too think that intelligence is inherited, but then, try considering this scenario. You might see or observe parents who are intelligent (depends on how intelligent you think they are, cause its subjective right?), would produce children who are indeed, as intelligent as them, more intelligent or less intelligent than them. But then, sometimes, they might produce a child who is usually called 'the black sheep of the family' cause, you know, this child might be very dumb. This is only an example of the scenario of what I was thinking that time, don't take it seriously. So, if it really is normal inheritance, all the children should be the same right? Thats why I think it might've been polygenic inheritance instead.

I'll give an example of what I'm thinking, say, the upper case would be gene for more intelligent and lower case vice versa.

Father: ABcDEFghIJKLMNopqRSTuVWxYZ
Mother: aBCdeFGHIJklMnOPQrSTUvWXYZ

So, the father has 18 intelligent gene and 8 non-intelligent gene and the same goes for the mother. If they have 3 children, the inheritance could be like this

Child 1: ABcDEFgHIJKLMNoPQRSTUVWXYZ
Child 2: ABCdEFgHIJklMnOPqRSTuVWXYZ
Child 3: aBcdeFghIJKlMnopqrSTuvWxYZ

As you can see, I've computed that the first child is very intelligent, having a number of 23 genes for intelligence, the second being less intelligent with 19 genes for intelligence, and poor third child, who is the most not intelligent of the three having only 11 gene for intelligence. This could happen in reality right? But who knows? As far as I've looked, read, searched, heard, studied, learnt, no one has yet to make a research on intelligence being polygenically inherited. Anyway, I still agree that environment really influences one's intelligence, so, my hypothesis should be corrected.

"Intelligence is mostly due to polygenic inheritance."

I might want to make a research into this, and try to get a nobel prize myself (haha, dreaming). Perhaps, someone before me could prove that my hypothesis is wrong, or, any of you reading this could show me it really is wrong. No harm thinking right? At least when I think, I trigger more brain cells to be activated, hence I get more intelligent, hehe.

p/s: I know may of you wouldn't agree with it, but seriously I ask you, did everyone immediately accepted Galileo Galilei's idea on Gravity?

Why do I want to be a doctor?

2009-02-26T01:08:00.005Z

Well, to all you people who are currently studying medicine, or would be doing so in the future, or will go for med school interviews, this might be one question you hate most (Cause I do).

It seems that almost all med school interviews have this question ready to be asked to the applicants. Even counselors of the preparatory institutions (er, the one you attend before going to med school la), would remind you of this question, which damns almost all med school interview applicants (sorry I might have exaggerated this sentence).

But seriously, I did received this question, not once, not twice, but erm, can't remember how many times, maybe 4 times, I think, in all 4 interviews I had to go to before being able to attend UCD. And how the hell did I answer this question?

Again I tell you, I really never liked this question, and of course, the lamest answer would be, "I like to help people" or "I want to be useful to the society". Tell me, would such answers dazzle the interviewers? Hell no, they want a better answer, an answer that could assure them they're selecting the right applicant, an answer that would show them that you really have the 'material' to be a doctor, an answer that.........

Aaaah, who cares?! I'm already in med school, and enjoying my life as one, haha. But how did I answer anyway? Spontaneously, without rehearsing. And I couldn't even remember what my answer was (exaggeration again).

p/s: me 4 years ago

A little laugh please

2009-02-23T23:27:00.001Z

I found this video on my friend's blog, really funny though, haha.

Enjoy laughing out your lungs! (Not literally)

Finally

2009-02-21T14:12:00.002Z

The title, well, its not Fergie's song of course. Today, I woke up at 7.30, still sleepy though, cause I slept at 2 am last night. But, have to wake up, despite being sleepy (was a sleepy head once, haha). Went straight to the bathroom, washed my face, brushed my teeth, etc. Then I wore my baselayer, pack up my hockey stuffs, namely, my shinpads, gloves, socks and turf shoes. Oh yeah, not to forget, the jersey I borrowed from Adli, number 14.

And so, I went of to the sports centre, and gathered with the rest of the team there. Put my stuffs into the back of Mic's car. Then, we began our journey to Naas, which took only about 45 minutes (Gary said it would be 1+ hour though, haha). We arrived early (9.00am), really early, cause the game's not starting till 10.30am, and the turf was occupied at that time, by kids playing hurling.

At about 10.00, the doors of Naas sports centre was finally open. We went into the changing rooms and change to our gears of course. Bla bla bla, then, the match was about to start. I wasn't starting today, good thing since I still feel sleepy and a bit, er, cold to take of my sweater. The game started and it was not yet 2 minutes before the opponent break the deadlock (what the hell?less than 2 minutes). O h yeah, forgot to mention something, the UCD 3 (us of course) are currently in Division 8 (and on top of the table, yeehaaa) whilst our opponent today, Naas 2 is now in Division 7.

Before the clock hit 10 minutes, we got our first short corner and thanks to that, Conor manage to score a goal after the ball rebounded to him. And then, 10 minutes before half time, we got a short corner again and this time, Davide hit the ball real hard at the tip of D line and managed to get ourselves in front with 1 goal. 5 minutes before half time, Robbie was shown a yellow card and suspended for 5 minutes, so the team was down to 10 men now. Lucky enough, they managed to pull it through the 1st half by holding on the 1 goal margin.

Ok, of to the 2nd half, I still ain't starting (sebab still tak mau bukak sweater, haha). But then, Davide told me to warm up, cause I'll be going on for Robbie after 3-5 minutes (whaa, it felt very cold when I took of my sweater). Right before I came on, Robbie managed to strike a goal and we went 2 goals front. Eventually, before the game restarted after the goal, Robbie was subbed in for me.

Played as usual, running around here and there (not really here and there lah, cause I have my position right). The 1st short corner since I came on the pitch, Richie (sorry if I wrongly spelled it) didn't manage to inject the ball well, I ran to the ball and push it out of D to reorganize our play and ran straightly for the near post. Richie hit it to me from out D and the ball merely grazed my stick and the goalie's pads before it went wide (supposed to be our ball but the umpires did not see the ball graze the goalie's pads though). Still 2 up.

Next attack, I received the ball, dribbled only a bit and passed it to Davide and I charged forward as hard as I can. Davide passed the ball to Neil and he hit but deflected out again by the goalie, which went in front of me, swept my stick on the turf and the nex thing happened was the banging sound of the soundboard at the back of goal. "Finally, I scored my first goal this season!" I shouted, everyone was glad I did, even John was (well, John wasn't always good with me).

We recoiled, and when they started the game again, John got the ball before the opponent managed to get through our 25 yards line, and I ran hard up front, and received the ball from John. Dribbled the ball pass 2 defenders (or was it 1, can't remember), and accidently hit the ball when I got in D, but, it wasn't really a fastball (cause I really didn't intend to try a shot on goal), and was received by Davide, who made a turn and swung his stick for the 5th goal of the macth. Wonderful, now I have 1 goal scored and 1 assist.

A short corner was awarded to us short after and this time, Davide injected the ball, and Richie hit the ball hard to goal, GOAL!!! Thats our 6th. Match restarted real fast and Robbie (who came on for John) managed to get the ball at half line, passed it to Neil before Neil tried on goal, goalie blocked and Robbie got the rebound, hit hard to left post where Davide is, and deflected the ball for our 7th and final goal. 7-1 against a team one division higher than we are. Final whistle, and there, "Ridhwan got a goal today", says Ivan, and again, everyone congratulated me. Haha, it felt good being the highlight. This is my first goal so far as a player for UCD 3. Finally, I ended my goal draught after 14 months with no goals in competitive matches. And yeah, I pretty much still remember my goal 14 months ago, a ball squared by Izzudin Subli to me and I tab a bit to goal, nostalgic, haha, that was during Pesta Hoki in USM.

p/s: now, you guys could figure out the title right? haha

Happy Birthday!!

2009-02-14T13:01:00.002Z

As of today, my youngest sister, Amanda turns 4. Whaaa, I'm not beside her when she grows up, how sad. Just writing this stuff here, to wish my cute little Amanda, a very happy birthday (she might not be able to read this post now maybe). I miss you Amanda.

It was my grandmother's birthday 3 days ago. She's 70 now, and still very healthy. Could even go here and there by her own. She lives on her own now that all her children are married, but they do come to visit her very often especially my makteh, who happens to live near my grandmother's house. Happy Birthday nenek!!

Also, Happy Birthday to my dear friends, Amirul Hafidz a.k.a Cepe, and a senior of mine here in UCD who happens to be my hockey teammate, Adli Jamaludin. Hmm, and 2 days ago, it was Buddy's birthday, Happy 22nd Birthday.

Haiya, better wrap up all those who's celebrating birthdays in February lah. Coming up in 2 days, Happy 21st Birthday in advance to Ikrom Izairi Idrus, Izhar Afiq Jalaludin, Norhana Mustapha and Nurul Hana (can't remeber your full name though). In 10 more days, Happy 21st Birthday to Nuraisyah Kamarudin. Adoi, sangat ramai la kamu yang birthday ini bulan, haha.

To the others whom I did not mention here, Happy Birthday as well, wherever you are. AMANDA, nanti abang Wan balik bawa hadiah!!

Enjoy your year ahead!!

Bil Letrik

2009-02-13T22:19:00.003Z

Aduh, kenapalah due date nak bayar 20 Februari ni. MARA tak masuk lagi duit, nak korek mana lah pula duit nak bayar. Well, sebenarnya, aku nak tulis ni, bukan tentang bil baru-baru ni. This time, bil rumah aku dah cecah 150Eur setiap orang, untuk lebih kurang 11-12 minggu (14 November 2008 - 4 Februari 2009). Sebelum tu, bil rumah aku, dalam 92Eur, untuk 10 minggu, so, mungkin tak apalah kot, winter la katakan, banyak pakai heater.

Alkisah post kali ini, aku nak cerita la hal dulu-dulu, masa dapat bil pertama kami. Masa tu, orang lain semua, macam tak ada yang lebih dari 75Eur kot, kecuali satu rumah tu, 141Eur, so, jadilah, rumah kami nilai bil yang kedua tertinggi di kalangan Malaysian di Belgrove ni. Maka, berlangsunglah, satu perbincangan, antara ahli-ahli rumah B23-5, Belgrove Residence.

Belum cukup hangat, adapun seorang di kalangan bertiga itu, memberi idea, untuk bahagikan bil mengikut kadar penggunaan, maka, melentinglah seorang dari tiga itu, dan masuk ke bilik sambil menghempas pintu. Dengan tenangnya, aku pun kata, tak bolehlah buat macam tu, kita tak dapat nak tengok atau buktikan pun siapa yang pakai banyak, bukannya ada syarikat elektrik tu pasang meter untuk setiap bilik, yang ada untuk setiap rumah.

Bukan aku tak kasihan pada orang itu, tapi, seolah-olah tak adil juga, sebab nak buat sesuatu tanpa bukti, memanglah akan ada yang tak puas hati. So, aku pun, jumpalah pula orang yang masuk bilik itu, dia cakap dengan aku, dengan nada yang tinggi, aku tak berniat nak marah pada mulanya, telah meninggikan suara aku juga, dan cakap, dia tak honour our meeting, main lari macam itu sahaja, mana boleh. Siapa tak marah, betul tak?

Maka, dia pun akur dengan aku, dan aku pun, cakaplah, memang tak mungkin boleh bahagi, sebab tak ada bukti, tapi aku hanya mampu ingatkan dia, untuk cuba berjimat, supaya bil kami taklah tinggi lagi lepas ini. Dan dia pun, akur sahaja.

Sampai klimaksnya, yang telah meninggalkan meeting itu (si B), telah mengutus surat pada yang mencetuskan idea untuk bayar mengikut kadar (si C). B letak 30Eur, dan dengan nada marah dalam surat, mengatakan C sungguh sengkek, dan sangat "bossy" sebab B kata, C selalu suruh dia buat itu ini.

C pun, tunjuklah pada aku, dan aku pula, tak mahulah konflik dalam rumah jadi lebih hangat, cuba untuk tidak mengambil pihak, duduk sahaja atas pagar. C pun utus balik surat, cuba untuk menjelaskan perkara-perkara yang diutarakan oleh B dalam suratnya. Dan setelah itu, aku pun tak tahulah apa jadi antara mereka.

Tapi, kalau ikutkan, bagi aku, aku rasa, antara mereka, sudah tiada apa-apa mahupun pertalian persahabatan. Tak pernah bersemuka, kalau ada pun, tak mungkin mereka bertegur sapa (berdasarkan pemerhatian aku). Maka, suasana yang keruh, dapat kurasakan dalam rumah itu, dan kucuba untuk menyatukan semula mereka berdua, namun gagal (usaha secara tak langsung).

Hingga kini, mereka tidaklah bertegur sapa, mahupun bersemuka. Dalam rumah kami, seolah-olah ada dinding antara mereka (memang pun, bilik asing-asing). Makan pun tidak sama-sama lagi, apatah lagi, setelah cuti musim sejuk yang lepas, C telah keluar dari pakatan kami bertiga (pakatan masak bergilir-gilir, haha) dan sertai kumpulan lain, jadilah kami (B dan aku) sahaja yang gilir-gilir masak.

Dan kini, C telah mengajak aku untuk tinggal bersama-sama tahun depan. Apa yang terlintas dalam fikiranku hanyalah, adakah aku perlu bayar lebih tahun depan hanya sebab aku ada PlayStation 3?

Pengajaran yang aku dapat, tak perlulah perkara sekecil-kecilnya, dijadikan masalah besar. Hanya akan menyebabkan perpecahan dan tidak puas hati sesama kita. Patut bersatu lah, kerana kita ni, dah lah sama-sama Islam, satu bangsa pula itu, bangsa Melayu.

Aduh, susah betul dunia sekarang.

Serik!!!

2009-02-12T16:21:00.003Z

As of the title, I've had enough of fooling around, I hope. I don't want to just get a pass, I want a distinction, a first class honours by the end of my studies. I don't want to be just a normal person within people, I want to stand out and show what I'm capable of.

Perhaps, I sounded as if I'm not grateful for getting such results, when others have to repeat the same module the second time, or perhaps, more than just twice. Hey, I am grateful, though, I'm not satisfied with what I've produced, cause I know I can do better than just pass the exams.

I know, some say, we have to be practical in life, exam results ain't important if you can't apply what you've learnt into your daily routines or whatsoever. But yet, I feel, everything is still down to your grades, wether you like it or not, people still see you by how good you are in exams. Eventhough you might get an A++ for practicals, but what to be proud of if you get a C- in your final exams, or perhaps lower than that.

Initiatives must be taken, double my efforts (er, maybe I should triple or even quadruple my efforts). Don't let me be satisfied by just a pass when I can do better if I strive harder.

Its my Birthday

2008-10-29T11:22:00.002Z

So, I took this chance during my MDSA10010 CAL session, just to tell you all here, ITS MY 20th BIRTHDAY, haha.

Wake up in the morning just for this class of nonsense, cause we have yet to be given our assignment. I shouldn't have come to this class in the first place though, haha.

Cheers all

The New Chapter of Life

2008-09-04T22:28:00.002+01:00

Guess, from the title, it clearly states everything. So, now I'm already a UCD First Year Medicine student, got my student card, and settled everything officially today. What next? I still have to go to Garda National Immigration Bureau to get my Garda card, if not, I'll be a PATI lor, haha. The day we arrived, we were already greeted by the Irish rain, haha, sorry for being to dramatic, its just rain though. I really felt cold, isn't it still summer now? End summer that is. We fast from about 5 am to 8 pm, obviously longer than Malaysia. Penat lor, tak larat nak buat banyak2 benda in one day. Anyways, I'm looking forward for class on Monday, hee, eager to start learning medicine stuffs. Wish me luck

IF

2008-08-17T04:38:00.003+01:00

Hi all. As for tonight, I'll be leaving for Sydney, not for studies, but for pleasure, and maybe, my last vacation with my family. So, since last Wednesday I've been thinking of the possibilities of what will happen in this coming week. What IF while I'm still in Sydney, my Un-Conditional Offer Letter arrives in my mailbox, or perhaps, the courier might come but I'm not here to get it. Then comes the thought, what IF Pn Ayuslina calls us all, and summons us for the pre-departure briefing while I'm still in Sydney. Then what IF there's any problem with my applications and all, or IF my flight back here is delayed, or IF some kind of storm hits Sydney.

Damn, I can't bear thinking bout the odds though. Oh, why did I ever think about the IFs in the first place.

Graduation

2008-08-11T16:14:00.009+01:00

Well, obviously, the title should already make yourself informed of my post right? It was a great day at PICC, and that I was able to gather with my friends all around. Congratulations to all Diploma Graduates and also the special awards achievers. Good luck for your next stage of education mates. Enjoy the photos.

Me and my Noradila

These are some of my classmates.

The boys of M06E : Me, Hanif, Hafiz, Danial, Izham, Faheem, Adi

My mom and dad

M06E: Sofia, Me, Adi, Izham, Atikah, Nadiah, Wahida, Faheem, Shahirah, Aqilah, Fairuz, Marshitah

M06E: Standing from left: Me, Fairuz, Atikah, Shahirah, Hafiz, Pn Salma, Nadiah, Sofia, Danial, Hanif
Sitting from left: Faheem, Adi

Danial, Hanif and me

My elegant Dyla, congratulations sayang.

My English Teacher, Pn Nursaidah

Me with Mior (we ain't gay alright)

The Hockey Team Captain and "Co-Captain", sorry Afif, I gave you the mandate, don't complain, haha.

My ex-roommate, Amirul Mohd Sallehuddin

Pictures courtesy of Me, Faheem and Adi

What I've Done

2008-08-09T07:08:00.002+01:00

I know the title, the song by Linkin' Park for the Transformers movie, and yes, its about what I've done. Its been a long while, very long since I had my fingers typing the keyboard. Perhaps, this time, I'm only able to type a few, that is, to update on whats going on so far in my life.

Perhaps, the latest so far would be that I have managed to achieve my target, that has been blurted out in one of my blog. I remembered, when I said it, me myself wasn't sure that I would be able to reach it, though, I reminded that every sky has its silver lining, and I know, mine isn't suppose to be low, its higher. Why not aim for the one I haven't been able to reach thus far? That thought, and ambition drove me to get the results I've been wanted to get, Thank You Allah, Alhamdulillah. Not forgetting, those who helped, you've all been a great teacher to me, and by the word teacher, its not suppose to be literally, it includes all of you friends, especially Dyla, who cared a lot.

Lately, I've joint the MCOBA Hockey Team in friendly matches, most of the time, I played as a forward, and so far, I've only scored twice, haha. How many games have I played anyway? Whatever it is, I can no longer play half, seems that I ain't fit enough to play half anymore. No matter anyways, I like playing on top, gets to raze up the opponents defense. Botaq and Teeno were the ones who invited me to play along, they've became way better than since koleq. Kudos to them. No updates on whens the KL League will start though, so, I'll be missing the actions in KL League, pity huh? Thought of playing together with them.

Is that the only thing I did in my holidays? Nah, I became a private tutor as well. The pays are way too good to turn down. At first I've got lots of offer, hehe, after all, I am a Diploma graduate ain't I? When I first started, I had lots of offers, but I only get to confirm with one, since the others live far away and I couldn't afford the petrol cost. Instead of getting RM1600 per month, now I only manage approximately RM840 per month for one student, 3 subjects, and a total of about 28 hours of tutioning a month. great eh? Thats RM30 per hour.

What I'm still worried of is about which university shall I get my place in, the Unconditional Offer Letter hasn't arrive yet, damn, how long must I wait? Tomorrow is my graduation day (or is it not?), hope to meet my friends from MCB there, see ya guys...

Monopoly World Edition

2008-02-07T14:55:00.000Z

Well, the Parker Bros are on their way to produce the new edition of monopoly, the world edition. And now, they are casting a survey to get people to vote for the top 20 cities which would be placed in the monopoly game board. As a Malaysian myself, I am aware that if Kuala Lumpur make it into the board, it is some great achievement, well of course, since majority of the world would vote for cities like New York, London, Dublin and etc. Hence, I checked the leader board and found out that Kuala Lumpur is currently at number 50 with only 0.7% vote. That is one thing that I find quite frustating myself, I really want to see my country's capital city be on the board, so, I also voted. Why not the rest of you Malaysians do the same? Just log on to www.monopoly.com and register, then vote for our beloved Kuala Lumpur.

United back in form

2007-10-08T00:05:00.000+01:00

Oh, before I forgot, last Saturday, I watched the game between United and Wigan. They managed to won the game with a margin of 4 goals. Hahah, thats the might of the Red Devils. It was also early this week when Rooney celebrates his first goal of the season, in the Champions League though, the game United won 1-0 to AS Roma. Forget not, Rooney also scored his first EPL Goal this season, having assisted Ronaldo for the third goal. Ronaldo scored twice here, and the one should not be forgotten, Tevez's goal, a stunning individual skill after receiving the long ball on ground. Good game, good results, good form.

Go United

Bye-bye UK..

2007-09-09T03:52:00.000+01:00

What is it with the title? As of now, it is confirmed that I won't be continuing my studies in the UK. Why? Cause I didn't get amongst the top 35 best to go to UK. So, how now? Since I won't be going to the UK, I'll end up going to Ireland. How come? Well, as a MARA scholar, we are allowed to choose 2 choice of country which we'd like to go, and I did chose UK as my first choice, followed by Ireland. I don't get placed amongst the 35 best, hence, I am placed into the list to Ireland instead.

Hahah, silly am I being huh? Asking questions to myself and answered them back. But hey, what I told up there is indeed true. So, I don't get to go to the UK. There goes my dreams of studying in the University of Manchester. There goes my dreams of going to the Theater of Dreams to support the Red Devils. And, there goes my dreams to live amongst the Britons, although for only 5 years, but that five years, if I could, it would be a wonderful 5 years there.

Never mind though, Ireland is not that bad, in fact, it ain't bad at all. Maybe its just me, the feeling in me that would not accept the fact that I'll be going to Ireland instead of UK made the difference. But hey, anywhere in the world is the same right? The most important thing is to live life happily. And that is what I'll try to do now is convince myself that its just the same. In fact, it is the same. So, why bother?

Still, there's one thing I need to do is try obtain a 35 for my final IB exam. I mean, at least a 35, if not, I wouldn't be going anywhere. But, I wouldn't target for a 35 only, I want higher than that. A 40 if possible, or maybe higher. Thats what I'm hoping for now. And I want to strive for it. For me, my parents, my loved one, and those who are related to me. Just prove that I can, and that is what I want to try doing for now.

Come on Utd

2007-08-17T23:56:00.000+01:00

Man Utd haven't been performing quite well early this season. Now it's a damn blow with the absence of Rooney for injury and Ronaldo banned for being red carded. However, with the might of the remaining team members, hope the side will get it through without 2 of their key players (how much key players do they have anyway?).

Go go go UtdCristiano sees red

Siapa termakan cili, dia terasa pedasnya

2007-08-17T15:13:00.000+01:00

Whaa, just now my Business and Management Studies teacher had reminded to those who haven't submitted the Internal Assessment assignment to submit it 3 days after this holiday. And as far as I'm concern, there aren't anybody else that haven't submit it except, ME. She even threatened that if the first draft is not submitted by then, the first draft after the date would be the final draft that would be sent for assessment. I'll be damn now, argh....

Its ours

2007-08-07T05:15:00.001+01:00

Think I'm forgetting something here.

Owh yea, last Sunday, Manchester United beat Chelsea in the penalty shoot out 3-0 after a full time score of 1-1 to clinch the Community Shield 4 years after they last put their hands on it. Way to go Devils.

Just a bit of...

2007-08-06T10:03:00.000+01:00

A bit of an update to this blog as its been a month or so since I've last posted. Last Saturday, The Senarai Hitam, my paintball team of course, had joined the paintball clinic held in this college as to prepare ourselves for upcoming competitive paintball tournaments we're joining.

The whole of Senarai Hitam members were the committee members as well as the game marshal. It was indeed great to have been marshals for the games as we are able to watch the other games played as close as possible. It thus gave us the opportunity to learn from other's mistakes and we managed to win all the matches we played. The final scores were:

Senarai Hitam : 385
Tremendous 5 : 380
Jarhead : 370

and the list goes on up to 24 teams. This proves that we still have good chemistry among us and we still have the touch in the game, hahaha. It was indeed a tiring day as we, the marshals have to withstand the hot sun longer than the other players.

Me in the SUKOMA shirt, one of the Marshals of the Paintball Clinic

Started off from the left of the dead box, began shooting right at the start

Strafing towards the left

Determined to win

Procrastinators..Beware!!!

2007-06-27T06:27:00.000+01:00

I think as if the title I've chose would make some people think that I am not a procrastinator giving warnings to all those procrastinators out there. Mind if I get you wrong, I just would like to tell what I feel of procrastinate now.

Approximately 4 weeks ago, when I just started my mid term break, I was given a number of tasks and assignments which most of them, are due to be submitted on the day I return to college. And guess what, being a typical product of SBP, I make my way through the holidays with nothing related to studies. Actually, not nothing but only about 2% of my break was purely spent on academics, as I recalled.

It does feel good to have the days filled with fun activities but then, with every each passing day, the due date for the assignments is nearing. Until I've gone through the first 2 weeks only I realized I have only a week left. What the hell? One week for dozens of assignments? Oh shit, now I really have to work on with things.

And when I just had the surge to start working on things, I lost my composure and that has made me went through everything in a state of blankness (menggagau laa tu, dah kerja last minute kan?). And to sum it all, the moment I reach my college for 3rd semester, I haven't finish any single assignments given to me (okay, I'm exaggerating here, I did manage to complete one though).

Oh how I wish I'm amongst the hardworking students, completing each task given without any procrastination. Just look at my semester exam results, not so convincing eh? Mind you, things like this, may only lead to self downfall and that is not what we want. To conclude, I think you all know what you should and should not do right? Make the best choice out of everything.

My celebrity look-alikes

2007-06-24T07:09:00.000+01:00

argh, how bad have I done?

2007-06-23T09:38:00.000+01:00

Its been a week since I've return back to this college for my third semester in this International Baccalaureate program. And heck, I just had a helluva week. By Wednesday, I've gotten all my exam results and now, am not very happy with it. My total points only come up to 33 whereas most of the others got more than 36. How am I suppose to get a place in the UK universities with such results? Heck I'll end up in the Czechs.

What I can hope now is with a mere improvement in certain subjects, I'd get good predicted grades, which later enables me to apply to any universities in the UK. Last Thursday, my mentor ask us to browse through web for the university we intend to apply into in the web. And I got myself to this page, which still show that I have hopes applying for a place in the UK.

A 34 for the requirements, 6 for all higher level subjects. I believe for my maths, I could as well achieve the 6 grade mark but not for my chemistry. Thats where I put my high hopes into. I am confident that for biology, I'll do well as I managed to get 7 for both semester exams, and also, for the standard level subjects, I do believe I could pass. Maybe now, I have to pray more, and involve in more spiritual activities, jadi warak laa tu, hahah.

Hmm, nothing is impossible, yet, everything is possible, so still, the thought that I would fail is still something I'm afraid that would happen. Just hope I'll succeed, cause I want to!!

Seventeen Summer Splash

2007-06-09T16:51:00.000+01:00

About 3 weeks ago, I bought QUIKSILVER merchandises and eventually got myself 2 tickets to the Seventeen Summer Splash (I should've gotten more tickets with the total amount I paid, damn those guys). But anyway, at first I never thought of going. And then, few days later, I suddenly felt like going, and with the extra ticket, I invited Dyla along.

As time pass by, my sis got herself 4 tickets (whaa, rm200++ on the bill I see). And so, I have to bring her along (with 3 more invitees of course, damn, makes my car have to work even more to carry the weights). Nevermind that, and yes we move on to the lagoon, sunway surf beach to be specific.

We arrived aproximately at 12.45, and yes, we were amongst the first 1000 I guess as we manage to get ourselves the goodie bags that was suppose to be given to the first thousand (or are they just making the 1000 so that people'll go early?). I did saw some of my friend from my primary school, but I wasn't sure who they are (can't remember their names, its been 7 years since then peeps).

Well, move on, I didn't even got myself enjoying the performance as I have to entertain my cousins, but nevermind, the shows weren't that attracting I guess (but everyone else thinks they do, I think). But hey, the views there are very much attracting though, with womens and girls wearing bikinis. Whaa, Malaysians nowadays are very much too open huh? ('very much too', just to exaggerate things, hahah). If only I brought a camera, I'd be able to post the pics here for you to share.

Owh, damn, is it something good? Even the Muslim ladies wore those kinds of outfit too! Aren't they suppose to cover some parts of their body?! If so, at least please not wear the bare it all kinda outfit, it makes me sick thinking of those kinds of Muslims, huh! Well, a contrary to that, ages ago, guys usually trunks, but now, they wear much longer, somewhat near to a 3/4 pants, well, thats one good thing we don't have to really see their balls hanging like I don't know what, hahah.

Cut it off there, before I leave, I met my ex-colleague, Izhar, damn, he just bumped me, and in reflex, I gave him a smack on the face. Hahah, bad eh me?

p/s: damn tired now, just want to have a long rest

satisfaction?

2007-05-15T14:45:00.000+01:00

Since last Saturday, I had been in a craze as there’s something new I have in possession for me to feel very satisfied about. And that particular thing is very much useful to the sports I really have my passion in, hockey. The thing I mentioned is my new TK CX 2.0 Plus Composite Hockey Stick composed of Carbon, Glass fibre and kevlar. One thing I’d like to share about here is that I have been craving for such hockey stick since I was 16 years old when I first saw a Grays composite hockey stick possessed by a friend of mine. And also, last Saturday, my hockey team here has finally has our very own team jersey. As for me, I very much am satisfied that I have gotten myself the number which I have been using during my past years, 16.

And then, on that very day, we had our second friendly match of this semester, a replay match against the Sekolah Menengah Jugra which we recently played against about 3 weeks ago, just to expose my team for a real match experience. Unfortunately, in the 2^nd game I captained my team, we failed to get the results on our side. 3 weeks ago, the results were 0-2 against the team, and again, with my new hockey stick debut, we lose 0-2 at home on Saturday.

The first half was played well that we managed to defend against their attacks, and we even managed to get ourselves into a position where we could score goals, the only thing we lack of is the finishing in front of goal. But luck wasn’t on our side as they managed to penetrate through our goal as early into the 2^nd half. And one thing I wasn’t satisfied about myself is the fact that I missed 2 goals where I was suppose to be able to get both easily without the goalkeeper being able to interrupt my action (I’ve managed to pass through the goalkeeper). And so, we lose in a match we were supposed to win.

Here’s our match form since I’ve entered the college team

MCB 2:1 iNTI College

MCB 0:2 SMK Jugra (1^st play)

MCB 0:2 SMK Jugra (2^nd play)

Satisfied I am with what I have gained, but satisfied I am not with what I achieved.

the players

me with my new TK CX2.0 Plus hockey stick

The Road Not Taken

2007-04-29T16:34:00.000+01:00

Its been nearly a year since I opted to come here, MARA College Banting, to do what I never thought of doing, pursue my studies in Medicine. All the way through high school, I've always dreamt of being in the pilot uniforn, seating in the cockpit, fly high up in the skies. But in a blink, that dream was taken away from me. Maybe not taken away from me, but I somehow, did throw the chance away.

When I got the letter from MAS, exactly a year ago, inviting me to attend the Psycomotor test, the first stage required for applicants to pass, to be a cadet pilot. And at that moment, I really thought my dreams would be a reality. And the fact that I did passed the test, has even made my hopes grew higher, and every bit of hope was put onto it.

But then, I entered MCB, after recieving the letter from MARA. At first, my focus and target were still on being a pilot, and it did not cross my mind to stay there, and at that, I never had my focus in classes as I really hoped that I could get the post of cadet pilot. When I recieved a phone call, summoning me to go for the 2nd test, the Psychometric test, I somehow felt a bit of half-hearted. Like I wanted to stay there in MCB, not wanting to be a pilot anymore, but hey, I still went to the test, not wanting to waste my chance.

In November, I recieved a notification letter stating I failed the test, and that was 2 weeks to my semester exam, which I haven't done revising in each subjects. But I stayed calm, as I remembered, not getting what I want (in this case, to be a pilot) doesn't mean I won't do well in other things. Even before I got the notice, I was told by someone, that I would fine the path I am in, would be the best choice for me, and that person, has been my aspiration for me to keep on going in this. Thanks. And I kept holding on, up till now, I am still able to.

And recently, it crossed my mind again, that would I not regret ignoring the application period in March, just so my focus in IB isn't disrupted? But still, have I manage to perform well in IB? I can only manage a 32 in my 1st sem exam and in all quizes, the most points I usually get is half of the total. That really proved I haven't yet to focus in IB. Where's the spirit?

Even now, as I thinked, am I doing the right thing?

FA updates everyone?

2007-04-29T15:47:00.000+01:00

I came across this blog, where Alec (the author), posts lots on football updates in EPL especially on the hot title race between Manchester United and Chelsea. Even there in his blog, he has his own predictions on the matches outcomes. So, one more site for football updates huh? *joking

Good Comeback

2007-04-29T10:59:00.000+01:00

Last night, I wasn't able to watch the live match between Manchester United against Everton, as I was on my way back from Malacca to my house. But every goals they put in, I recieve the goal alerts which at first, made me feel terified that United may lost the match (first 2 goals scored were by Stubbs and Fernandes).

Later, John O'Shea started the goal spree and then thanks to Phil's own goal United equalised. Two latter goals were then scored by Rooney and Eagles which now made United clear five points ahead of Chelsea, who were held draw at home 2-2 against Bolton.

Next Wednesday, United will play AC Milan for the 2nd leg of Semi Final which in the 1st leg, United won 3-2. Come on devils, repeat the treble!!

Glory Man United

My Game

2007-04-25T15:05:00.000+01:00

After lots of procedures, and failure in getting the proposals approved, finally, we've managed to conduct a hockey friendly match against the Sekolah Menengah Jugra, also, the district representatives of Kuala Langat.

Somehow, we've lost the game with a scoreline of 2-0, both in the first half. Yet, this is not what I'm frustrated about. The thing that got me frustrated was the fact that most of the team members did not attend trainings regularly and hence, it made them have lack of skills and whats worst is their basic skills were not sharpen.

In the first half, I applied the 4-2-4 tactics, where with that, I hope to get a good and smooth flow amongst the half and wings. But then, with our lack of practice, I doubt they'll do well with the tactics used and finally, what happen was they fail to make every chances pay. But I have to admit that our halfs and top forward were very much useful as their flow of play were great. Its just the wing play wasn't up to what I expected it would be.

Our defence line were also poor, where, instead of following with the team's rythm, they made their own and there, the flow from the backs to the offence weren't there. But, I'd like to express my gratitude to our lastman, which has tried very well to block every balls hit by the opponent.

And then, into the 2nd half, I reverted to the hockey team's original tactics, 5-3-2. I did so as I see that we really need more defence player to protect our goal area. And so, I have no wings to play it wide. And luckily, in the 2nd half, we managed to safe guard our goal and the match ended with 2-0.

Credits should be given to Casper, Aziz, Azmi and Pak Din. These are those who played well throughout and amongst the 5 person(with me amongst them) that got compliments for playing well from the coach of the opposing team.

P/S: I also found that we are the types that are used to playing on turfs. So, maybe this was one of our disadvantage when plaing against them on grass. Whatever it is, really hope we could improve ourselves for the future.

Glory glory Man United

2007-04-16T05:38:00.000+01:00

United have now advanced themselves into the finals of FA cup after beating Watford 4-1 and is now up to battle their way against Chelsea. Previously, in the same weeks, united showed their Might with a dominance win of 7-1 against AS Roma to qualify themselves into the Semis of UEFA Champions League.

Glory Manchester United!!

The Senarai Hitam

2007-04-16T04:59:00.000+01:00

Wow, last Saturday was such a tiring day for me. The whole lot was spent on the fields of the college. 7 am to 7 pm. But really, I very much appreciate Amaluddin, Syakir, Faiz and Danial for giving me the chance to join them into 'The Senarai Hitam', the team that was really looked up to on the day.

At first, it hadn't crossed my mind to join such activity as I was a bit of 'non-supportive' for the effort of Pn Rokiah. But hey, as I helped out with the organizing of the event, where I was the Chief Secretariat, why not I joined in with what I've put my efforts in?

And as I searched for teams to join in, I tried to join the class team, but then, I was offered a place by Amaluddin into his team. Seriously, I've never played paitball before and also, I've never went for any target practice like those guys in the Cadet Corps do (I was a Brass Band and The Orchestra Team member). We spent a whole lot of money, about RM65 each for the ammunitions, which we manage to get 6 bags (500 pellets each) for the whole tournament.

Our strategist, the captain itself really had this vision of winning the tournament and get ourselves the E-Marker all the participants were aiming for. Before the day, we managed to consult the technician guys which happens to be an otai in this game for strategies we might use for tomorrow, considering the amount of pellets we have, we can really fire up lots of em.

On that very day, we were grouped with 305 and Supir that happens to be the favourites aside us. And yes, we manage to create an impression where people in the tournament really looked up on us, and some even consulted strategies with me (though I'm quite a beginner in this). All the way, we won all games and at the semis, we meet the KLCC 1.0 (a team from Kuala Langat Community College) which happens to win all matches except for the battle against 305. This was as if a final for us as the team was a much established team compared to us. As we battled, one by one was marked down and I was the last man standing having marked a person of theirs which later went down to 2 against me alone. Unfortunately, with the number, we lose as I was marked down and there ended our campaign.

Whatever it is, at least I've created an impression where people believd me to be one good player, to prove it, I gave consultations to 2 teams and they did won, except for their match against KLCC 1.0. Above all, I really thanked the other members of The Senarai Hitam for considering me to be one of their team player, and that has made the difference.

The Senarai Hitam

P/S: I've just met with Pn Rokiah and she says that the principal really looked up on us and now thinking of getting us into the finals of U-League. How great it feels to be the highlight of the day.

not in form

2007-04-07T19:45:00.000+01:00

Manchester United 1-2 Portsmouth. 7 April 2007

Was really sad that Rio Ferdinand had scored the winning goal for Portsmouth with his own goal in the 89th minute. However, thanks to John O'Shea for the undying spirit which he manage to score a goal after the ball was saved by David James right in fornt of him. And now, the title race has gotten even hotter as the points gap between the top 2 is just 3 points. How have United lost their form this week? They even got beaten by AS Roma 1-2 in the Champions League Quarter Finals last Wednesday.

pressured

2007-04-07T19:16:00.000+01:00

I find that for the past 2 weeks was really weeks full of tense. Throughout the 2 weeks, my mood swings a lot (weird is it for me huh?), I got frustrated at a number of individuals, and even went mad at 2 groups of people. Damn, I was so for the 2 weeks.

Even in my studies, I still had difficulties in certain subjects, namely, Chemistry and Pure Maths. And really, I need lots of help in these subjects. I wouldn't want to get a 3 again for these subjects, I'm now targetting for a 6, or at least a 5. But with my pace now, I doubt it would be real.

Off with studies, to my big frustration. I was really frustrated at one group of mine where all the works involved had all been appointed to me. Why can't any of them help? Reasons for it, busy with studies. Well, if you are, don't you think I'll be too? Why are they being so selfish when in such programmes we are in, requires a good teamwork amongst those involved? I'm not asking for something big here, well at least, please help lessen my burden. Damn I hate those kinds of people. Back there in my high school years, this sort of things never happens. And if it does, at least its not that worse as it is now.

And then, there comes this feeling of unwellness, as I neared towards the end of the 2 weeks. Sick I am of these tense.

Of Anger and Frustration

2007-03-25T03:25:00.000+01:00

We often got wind up between the word anger and frustration. Anger, as in the dictionary means the strong feeling that you have when something has happened that you think is bad and unfair whilst the other, frustration means to feel annoyed or impatient to someone because they cannot do or achieve what they want.

Most of us got frustrated easily, well, that’s what most people think. Because they thought that what happened may bring bad effect to him/her. But I think it otherwise, as in most cases, people tend to get angry easier than getting frustrated.

Usually, when one gets angry, the effect of anger would last just for a short period of time, but when one is frustrated, the effect would cause the person to remember what had happen to him/her for long as it also brings effects to his emotion.

I don’t deny the fact that when one is angry, the emotion is affected but when one gets frustrated, the feeling penetrates deeper than that of anger and what we’ll find next is, the person would act differently to the person/things he is frustrated to.

Anger can fade even without the guilty party does not apologize but frustration would not. Even sometimes when they’ve apologize, the one whose frustrated would still never forget what had happened. There, wouldn’t it not be better for us to make people angry than making them frustrated? To make things easier, just don’t do both, that will create a harmonious community as a whole.

Urgh, what am I talking about wholly? Maybe I’m just mumbling, just my thoughts on such feelings. You ought not to believe me, hahah

Finally

2007-03-22T09:07:00.000Z

I've gotten myself approved by Pn Jarini, who'll be my supervisor for Extended Essay, and that means I'll be proceeding with Biology for my EE research. Although I have been granted to be one of the students to be supervised by her, I still haven't got myself a proper research question yet. Why, cause I took only 30 minutes thinking of it, which to some, doesn't seem appropriate to come up with a research question in such nick of a time.

But I kept myself to Biology as that was my first choice of subject to proceed with EE aside English and Statistics. Its just the research question that I have doubts with. As I asked a number of colleagues here, they seem to find my research question would be a more appropriate one for Physics, and that has been why I think I should think of a new one sooner.

At least, I've secured myself with Pn Jarini, that would be such a relief for me. I'm just afraid that if I'm unable to get a supervisor, I would later be placed under other supervisor which I lack fancy of (hahah, do we still have favs towards the teachers here?). Thanks Pn Jarini

Extended Essay!!

2007-03-21T07:37:00.000Z

Urgh, been thinking of the possible research question for me to proceed my Extended Essay research, but how hard I thinked, I am still unable to come up with any good research question. How have my friends able to think of a suitable research to proceed with but I couldn't?

I think my problem lies within me as I usually have problems deciding when I have to choose between a number of options. Well, since I've started thinking of possible research questions for my essay, I have come up with a number of ideas from different subjects; English, Biology and Statistics. Now, why have I not pick only one subject which I can focus on?

I find that, within me, I have the feeling of fear towards the possibilities that my research could turn out wrong halfway through my research later, and that may be one of the biggest problem in me. As I remembered, when we were briefed on EE, it is not necessary that our hypothesis to be verified as true but what counts is our capabilities to write a 4000 words essay on our research, also, the most important is how we present and process the datas. There's no need to prove our hypothesis to be true then, so, whats the big deal?

Then I thinked, what if our hypothesis is really wrong? What can we do about it? Based on what our teachers said, when such event occurs, we can always present our errors in the discussion and some even said that when such thing happens, we may have more ideas that can be presented in our EE. There!! Don't be afraid to form up research question, just do what you think you can? (Erm, that should be said to myself right?)

And so, now, I have to think of what I can do for my EE. Look deeper into those subjects I've learnt, then I'll find something to investigate. Hahah, pity me I'm this naive.

Week over

2007-03-17T17:27:00.000Z

What? The semester break will be over today? Damn, I didn't realize I've gone through 8 days of holiday. How can this possibly happen? I haven't finished up my assignments yet. Even my research question for EE haven't been thought of yet. I'm doomed. How can I not realized its been a week? Maybe I enjoyed too much without even thinking of my assignments that had to be done since last Saturday. Geez, should change my attitude soon, how am I suppose to survive in IB with this attitude? No wonder I always, erm, what we call that ah? "Menggagau" with our assignments when we go back to KMB, aiya.

Bed full of stuffs I'm
bringing back to KMB

Squash? For me?

2007-03-17T15:07:00.000Z

Well, I remembered I wrote something in one of my posts that I prefer games that use hands. And as I currently am a hockey player as well as a partiatlly tennis player, also formerly a cricketer and a water polo as well, now, I'm expanding my skills to something other, squash.

I'm a bit weird, how could I have bought a squash racket when I don't regularly play it? Oh well, maybe just my luck that I have manage to buy the racket so sudden. Hell no, I asked my mum for it and fortunately, for me, she bought it. Wow!

I've once told Aiman not to let me play squash too often, cause usually, the games which I play oftenly, would result in me buying the required equipments to play them. And at that, Aiman told me he would not play squash with me regularly, or for more accurately, we only played squash like, once a fortnight.

Maybe, its just up to me, why have I even asked my mum for it? Looks like I'm a bit spoilt ain't it? Alwasy gets what I want from my mum, geez. I shouldn't have, I'm sorry for her she'll take all the blames from my dad for what I always asked for, and somtimes for what I did. Say, when I came home late, my dad would probably asked her of my whereabouts and that made me felt really bad about it. I'm sorry mum.

Er, back to my post, why squash of all things? Any good reason for it? Hey Ridhwan, just be grateful for whatever you get. Alhamdulillah, all praise to Allah, amin.

My newly bought racket

3 days spent at the hospital

2007-03-15T20:30:00.000Z

Well, from Monday till Wednesday, I had my "community service" done at the Selangor Medical Centre (in IB, we call this personal CAS which is an abbreviation for Creative Action and Service where we are required to complete 180 hours of CAS doing chores to fulfill the requirements to get our IB Diploma). And for the whole 3 days, most of my time were spent with my lovely Dyla.

There at the hospital, we were assigned to the Medical Record Dept where we worked under the wings of Mr Shahrin. When we arrived, we received a warm welcomed from the general manager and we were brought for a tour around the hospital before we were stationed at our assigned department.

Everyday, before our lunch break, I stationed myself at the front desk where we help patients in need of wheelchairs and at times, I help set up appointments for them. And usually, after the lunch break, I then enter the Medical Record room to help out with the staffs there. I find both the staffs at the front desk and the medical record room very friendly and they made us feel very homely as if they are our own family.

And for the last day, we had a tour again around the hospital where we watch a dressing process being done at the clinic there. Also, we were brought to the Radiology Dept where we were explained of the use of the imaging tools they have. And lastly, we were brought to the Special Diagnosis Unit where we had been briefed a lot on heart disfunctions there by Mr Ali, a perfusionist, and my, I wouldn't like to be a perfusionist like he does, very much work involved for this profession. Even the tour around the unit tooks about 1 and a half hour.

And as we ended our attachment there, we were invited by Dr Zainal Arifin for some tea at the cafe where we had discussions on his life as a doctor, ours as a student and also, he gave some tips on how to survive when studying abroad later on. Well, that ends our attachment there and I find that they being someone related to the medical life isn't as hard as I thought it would be long ago.

P/S: I somehow feel a bit frustrated as we weren't allowed to enter the operation theatre and mostly what we do was just helping with the medical records. But luckily, being there didn't bore me at all as they did treat us as one of them and some even treat us like we're their own kids.

TAGged!!

2007-03-15T12:47:00.000Z

Damn, I've been tagged by sanza

Rules & Regulations:
Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

Here's 6 weird things about ridhwannoordin

I have a guitar but I seldomly play it and even those without guitar in my college plays way better than I do.
I'm afraid of blood and raw flesh. But hey, how can I have chosen to be a doctor when I I'm afraid of them? Guess I have to overcome it.
My room is always tidy but hey, look underneath my bed, looks very much like a "tongkang pecah".
I'm a game freak, in which when I am so into a game, even the game which has been released 3-4 years ago can make me glued to the television for hours.
Unlike all other guys, I prefer playing sports which requires the use of our hands (i.e. hockey, tennis) rather than those using legs (i.e. football, takraw)
I hardly find a good time for me to read. Say, I've bought 14 books since april last year, and I only finished reading 2 of them. How's that sound?

Tag!! You're next..hahah

Leisure..

2007-03-11T01:11:00.000Z

The word "Leisure" as referred to the dictionary means 'activities you do to relax or enjoy yourself'. For others, it means 'the time when you are not working nor busy'. Our need for leisure is different for every individuals, depending on their career, lifestyle and culture, but surprisingly, we never had ample time for leisure. The question now is, do we really not have ample time for leisure? Or are we keeping ourselves busy at our supposedly time of leisure?

Even as a student, one might say that they have insufficient time for leisure. But don't they realised that whatever they do, not relating their education can be accepted as leisure. Give one example, a student in a music club, when they go for their weekly practice, isn't that a leisure to play instruments they have passion for? Refer back to the first meaning I gave you, enjoy yourself right? Would you not enjoy playing such instruments when you are pressured up by all kinds of burden around you? At least you're taking a break from them when you do.

How could one say they don't have enough time? I experienced this previously, but I realised that I have ample time to do what I want, but it became "not enough" for me when at the times I was suppose to complete my assignments was used to play games? So that's where we didn't realize what we do. We ought to be occupied with unnecessary routine we usually do and as a result of that, we tend to procrastinate our assignments till the due date arrives. That is why we say we have insufficient time.

Now, why do I think that I won't have any leisure for the holidays, well, its because my mind was set up to think only of the hospital attachment I intended to do at the Selangor Medical Centre. But hey, as I'll be staying at my friend's, wouldn't it be a nice time of the year to have leisure with them, after all, I seldomly meet them. My hospital attachment will only take my time from 8.30am till 4pm, and then? For sure, I'd say I'll hang out with a bunch of friends keeping myself enjoyed with their presence. And that, would be a reward for me isn't it? Especially after a busy day of work (well, not exactly work I'm doing, just some sort of service I'm offering myself to the hospital).

So, get it straight, in our lives, we do have time for leisure, its just that we tend to keep ourselves occupied at those times where we were suppose to be relaxing somewhere with our beloved ones. Wouldn't it be better if we could finished our assignments as soon as possible? So we won't have to think of it and instead, entertain ourselves with what we really want to do at those leisure times we had.

time?focus?idea?whatever

2007-03-10T04:45:00.000Z

I realised, as I was browsing through my friends' blogs, most of it have not been updated for a long time. And some even deleted their blog. It made me think, why have they did so? For a few moments, I thinked, and I concluded, that these could be their resasons why.

They may have no time to make any posts. This could be true as most of my colleagues are now in their higher education. They have to give more attention to their studies rather than spending their precious time wasted on the screen of a computer.

As for the other reason, they may have gone out of ideas of what to post. For this reason, it sounds very funny ain't it? Well, I think there's a lot more to be discovered in the world and for what I've said, we can't possibly go out of ideas. Haha, but this is what happens to me all the time. Having no idea of what to write in an essay, no idea of what to chat with friend even when they're around me, and worst, I don't know of what to do for my extended essay.

If the first reason is true, then how can I still post my blog here? Weren't I suppose to be focusing on my studies as well. After all, my extended essay research question haven't been thinked of yet. Well then, better get up to work now, I want my IB Diploma, hahah.

I'm a life blogger??

2007-03-10T03:45:00.000Z

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What Kind of Blogger Are You?

Something I found on Izham Ismail's blog. I tried, and that's the result. Am I a life blogger? Hm, could be true, or could be not.

a week full of...

2007-03-05T14:25:00.000Z

Well, I sighed of relief to have gone through last week which was for all of us first years, were one of the most hectic weeks of our lives in this college. Last Wednesday we had our business planning presentation which we started our researches about two weeks before we were due to present. Unfortunately, as the Chinese New Year holiday was within that period, I found myself not doing anything for the presentation till the last minute which most of what I had to research was done together with the help of Marshitah, Nadiah and Izham (Thanks to this individuals).

Then, on Friday, we had a musical production where my class, combined with A06B and E06B were supposed to work on “The King and I”. We practiced a lot for the production even our props were prepared thoroughly as our target was to get every single award featured in the competition. As the night came, we didn’t manage to get all the awards, plus we only managed to get number 2 for the whole production. Though, we managed to get the most awards compared to the others.

As for the week before, my class had gone to the FELCRA Training Centre in Segamat for our “Amal Islami” programme. The programme was suppose to nurture ourselves with as much input on Islam so that all of us could be a successful muslims but instead, the activities planned there were mostly of leisure, thanks to Faheem that is. And when we arrived back at college, I collapsed the moment I reached my room; it was indeed a tiring weekend.

As for today, I find that this week would be a bit tense as I have two days with tests in the evening, and meetings almost every night. Even now, I am in the midst of a meeting but instead of focusing on it, I spent a bit of my precious time in front of the laptop screen to post this blog. And then now from the meeting, I've been assigned with tasks which would consume more of my precious time here. I really wished this week would progress faster than usual so that I could go back home and have some leisure time with those I love.

here is Ridhwan Noordin's blog

2007-02-20T07:10:00.000Z

Well, I just started to post my blog here, so, guess I'll start with an introduction on myself first.

The name's Awang Mohd Ridhwan bin Mohd Noordin, currently lives in Nilai, Negeri Sembilan. The first and only son of Capt Mohd Noordin bin Hashim and his wife, Dayangku Rohaidah binti Pengiran Jalaluddin was delivered on the 29th October 1988 in Taman Tun Dr. Ismail, Federal Territory of Kuala Lumpur. Eldest brother of 4 younger sisters namely, Dayang Shazrina, Dayang Noor Alyaa, Dayang Ainil Hawa and the youngest and most loved of all, Dayang Safiya Amanda.

The others about me, you'll know yourself as you get closer to me. Feel free to roam through my previous blogs here. Enjoy my posts...